Too old?

This morning, I was reading about Abraham and Sarah. They were told not to let their age determine  what they could accomplish, whether or not God would be able to work with them.  This hit particularly close to home as lately my view of what I see happening is clashing with what I feel traditionally has been expected of "people my age." 

How I see myself--probably way younger than I should--compared to how I've seen people around me age and talk about age is definitely different.  I remember, years ago, when someone I knew turned first forty, and then fifty. "I'm old," they would reinforce verbally and as they did so, I watched them deteriorate.  And I determined I would never define myself by my age--or rather by society-based age expectations.

When I was pregnant with Penelope, they defined me of "advanced geriatric maternal age" and took all sorts of precautions. My thought was, didn't I just do this two and a half years ago? Have I really changed all that much?

And I hadn't.

I feel the same way about my level of activity. Yes, it's a little different. I don't compete with the ambitious edge I used to strive for because winning has become much less than important than me playing well and harmoniously with those around me. But it's like with pregnancy, I feel. You don't start a new exercise regimen willy nilly at my age without considerations. Yet surely, I can keep doing the things I have been doing week after week for so many years?

But for some reason, with this last play, it hit a little harder. Probably also because I no longer am a self-hater, a self-driver.  I like and respect myself and enjoy how good it feels when I take care of myself--emotionally, physically, mentally.  So the habit of pushing myself beyond what was healthy is no longer an option :D.  Considering this all, my age factored in--is my season closing on this? If so, then what? If not, is it really possible?

These passages of scripture, particularly with the line, "is anything too hard for the Lord?" really resonated with me.  I don't feel that God is a slave-driver but rather an inspired mentor, lovingly saying: "if you want to do this, I can show you how and lend you my power and grace to accomplish it."

I was just having a Sarah moment.