Being Held

Missin' my Isaak right now. Tomorrow would have been his 17th birthday. I don't often picture things like that...I still see him as that little boy I last saw so many years ago.
We bought balloons for him tonight and I sat and cried in the car as I listened to Casting Crowns "Just Be Held." I am so grateful to know I will be able to hold him again someday just as my Savior is holding me when things feel so hard.
I am so grateful my God never gave up on me and still holds me.

Hold it all together

Everybody needs you strong

But life hits you out of nowhere

And barely leaves you holding on

And when you're tired of fighting

Chained by your control

There's freedom in surrender

Lay it down and let it go

So when you're on your knees and answers seem so far away

You're not alone, stop holding on and just be held

Your world's not falling apart, it's falling into place

I'm on the throne, stop holding on and just be held

Just be held, just be held

If your eyes are on the storm

You'll wonder if I love you still

But if your eyes are on the cross

You'll know I always have and I always will

And not a tear is wasted

In time, you'll understand

I'm painting beauty with the ashes

Your life is in My hands